Face it!

It happens most of the time when we are going through a difficult phase of our life, where we know that we just need to say the truth to go forward, that we hide ourselves behind lies, revolts and angers which don’t help. The Pride and the fear to say to the world who we are, does not allow us to open our mouth in order to say loud for the liberation of our soul that we were wrong and that we repent for our misdeeds. In order to appear strong and above others, we just continue to misbehave more and more, taking, by doing so, the risk to expose the identity that we are making all effort to hide.

It is sad to realize that men like to put themselves in jail, or tie themselves with lies.  Pretend to be what they are not in order to catch the attention of others and be accepted by them. If only we knew that the best way to attract people with value is simply to be ourselves. The mask is an object that many men use because they hate the reflection of their face in the mirror. They know that their face is dirty, has a lot of pustules and have found in wearing mask and telling lies, allies with the intention to have “friends”, who like them feel badly because of the appearance of their face, or have difficulties to love and accept themselves as they are. That is why they use masks and lies in order to feel integrated in a society which conditions people to be false, helps them to hate themselves and to love what belongs to the neighbor. In fact, they don’t realize that what they appreciate in the neighbor who is a “friend” is not his real face, but his masks and his lies.

The society becomes like an exposition’s hall of the best masks and exposé of best lies, and no one despite the time that he gives to have the best mask, or to build the best lies is proud of his own, but continues to envy the one of his neighbor.

Can you realize that there is a chain of non sense problems in which people put themselves in? Who is who? No one looks like himself! No one equals himself, but everyone is the copy of someone who is himself another copy of another one. All this is because one refuses to see his pustules on his face. 

May no one expect from me that I will tell him that there are no pustules on his face and that his face is clean! I will keep myself to say it because I know that it won’t be the truth at the point that if you even try to convince yourself, the simple fact that you remove your mask, and go out to meet people will make you face the disgusted glance of others. And you will know at this moment that, by telling you that you have a beautiful and clean face, I lied.

It is true that your face is ugly, full of pustules and dirt. I have to admit that it is more than ugly this face, but it is ugly because you refuse to take care of it. You prefer to take care of your mask like other do. Although you know that this entire cinema creates a lack of peace in your heart, and makes you carry a most heavy load, you continue to refuse to take care of this face which was at the origin beautiful, but that you refused to maintain.

What will you say if I suggest that you first start to look in your heart the memory of this beautiful face without pustules that you earlier had?

What will you say if I suggest that you approach God, and tell him that you miss this face and you desire not just to have it again, but to have a most beautiful and most healthy face? 

What will you say if I suggest that you face the ugliness and pustules of your face by simply removing the mask and stopping with your lies?   

It is clear that when you will start this process of recovering your initial face, you will have people who will feel more than disgusted to see a face so ugly. You will have people who will leave you, or propose that you wear a mask. Some may even invest for you to have the best mask sold on the market, but please use well the strength that God gave you through His Spirit to refuse to fall into this pretense. Rather, continue not just to face the ugliness of your visage, but also the look of others. Be assured that those who find your visage ugly and disgusted are most impressed by the courage that you have to show your face and be freer to reveal it.

They really envy your freedom, and would like to be as you, but they know that it costs a price: the breaking of their ego. And with time, you will discover that the thing which makes your visage be so ugly is the presence of this ego in your life. The more you will pray that God delivers you from ego, and that you also do your best for it not to express itself in your life, or even to exist in your life, the more you will discover every day the amelioration of the quality of your face, the pride and joy to be as God wants you to be. It costs nothing, and brings a lot!

When I say that it costs nothing, you will probably tell me that it costs the fact that you will lose friends. I believe that by saying that you will discover, that if they are friends, they should not go because of an ugly face which is in phase of purification. It helps no one to have friends who encourage him to evolve in lies. For your own health, it is better that you get separated from those kinds of friends and surround yourself with those who like you have taken the decision to get free from masks and pretense.

You will probably tell me that it costs a courage that you don’t have. I have to admit that this time you are right. It costs a courage that you really don’t have. Nevertheless, God has it and gives it to you as a gift if and only if you accept to take it. Be assured that while giving you this courage, He also gives you the instructions of use. Don’t hesitate to take it and to use it well not just for the rest of your soul, but also for the discovery of a healthy, beautiful and glossed face.

Don’t hesitate to believe in the beauty which hides itself in you and don’t allow your ego to destroy it and prevent you from discovering it. 

God gives you for this reason the means to achieve it and also assistance. He will always be near you during the purification of your face and He will make sure that you lack nothing during this moment which will be painful for your ego that for your sake has to disappear.

I love you, but Jesus most!

Eugenie of Jesus

The example of Joseph

Joseph was not just a child much loved by his father but by God as well. While he was really young, God gave him dreams which predicted what he is going to be later. That means a man above his brothers. It is really possible that the devil knew the plans that God had for Joseph or else that God is going to use him mightily. One point is sure: His brothers allowed themselves to be used by the devil when they sold their own orphan brother.

The attitude of a normal man who find himself far from home and far from those dreams that let him believed that he will lead will be to be into a great anger against the God of his fathers, to damn Him and take his life into his hands. On the contrary, Joseph continues to be a just man and the Lord was with him. Living with Potiphar where he ascended from the role of a slave to the one of a steward of the house, the Lord blessed Him and Potiphar through him. At this moment of glory, Joseph don’t say to himself that he has reached the peak of the glory and it is better for him to forget this God who has allowed that he becomes separated from his father and his younger brother. On the contrary, he continues to be faithful to him and refuses the advances of his master’s wife because he does not want to sin against God.

 Genesis 39 : 9 No one is greater in this house than I am. My master has withheld nothing from me except you, because you are his wife. How then could I do such a wicked thing and sin against God?"

By showing a so great faithfulness to the Lord, instead of blessing him promptly, the Lord does nothing else than to allow his servant to be put in jail for a fault he did not commit.

 At this moment again, Joseph has all the rights on a human’s point of view to become depressive and damn God. It is amazing to realize that here he is going more far from the prophecies of the dreams he had when he was living with his father. And in addition to this he was just having a good position at Potiphar’s place that he find himself in prison for a crime he did not commit. Someone may really ask what does God finally want from him? What does life expect from him? Sold by his own brothers, and in prison for a non committed crime. “Where is the God of his fathers? Is he asleep?” Someone may understand that God behaves like that if Joseph had sinned; but never! Never was he unfaithful to the God of his fathers!

 I have the impression that it is someone like us who observe the situation who will ask those questions but it seems that it is not the concern of Joseph to ask such questions. On the contrary, as nothing happened, as he has not being hurt, he continues to love God in prison and God continues to bless him.

 In jail, Joseph did not become cold because of trials, Slaves in Egypt , he is not cold with them and in return, they are not also cold with him. The fact that he is interested about the bad mood of the Egyptians prisoners shows his opened heart and that he did not pity himself despite the fact that his situation was not enviable. Here, Joseph uses the gift that God gave him and he did not glorify himself. He still remains confident to the God of his fathers despite the fact that He has not saved him from the catastrophic situations which happened to him.

 Although life has not being particularly, easy for Joseph, he never allowed trials to destroy him or to prevent him to continue to believe that he can reach a great target. Most of the time when life is a succession of trials, we may devalue ourselves and our ambitions are just at the level of our actual social status. We don’t have big dream anymore and we may say to ourselves: “what is the aim to have more if it is to lose again?” But the reaction of Joseph is totally different because he says to the chief cupbearer to whom he interpreted the dream: Genesis 40: 14 But when all goes well with you, remember me and show me kindness; mention me to pharaoh and get me out of this prison.

 Joseph’s target is so high: Pharaoh! We realize through this that he is not afraid to ascend more and fall as it happened to him later and as we know the more the ascension is great, the more the fall is dangerous.

 The fact that he targeted Pharaoh was anyway at his advantage since he finally found himself in front of Pharaoh. In front of Pharaoh, he has the courage to speak about God. Someone may understand that he talks about God to Potiphar’s wife and to the prisoners but not to Pharaoh the keeper of Egyptian’s gods who is also considered as a god himself. This attitude proves that he has a lot of courage and he really depends on his God. Normally, someone in face of such a situation will say : «This is the chance of my life and I don’t have to lose it.«  And we don’t need to be clever to understand that speak about God to Pharaoh and showing him his dependence to God may compromise the chance of our life. But Joseph has another point of view and he has the guts to say to pharaoh: "I cannot do it," Joseph replied to Pharaoh, "but God will give Pharaoh the answer he desires." Genesis 41: 16

 And the result is: God lifts him up and pharaoh makes an interesting remark by saying:

 Genesis 41: So Pharaoh asked them, "Can we find anyone like this man, one in whom is the spirit of God?"  I won’t be surprise that it was the first time that Pharaoh talks about: “God” instead of “the god of” of “a god”, acknowledging by this confession the existence of one God among others and then his gods.

 When we read all this, someone may say that Joseph did not suffer from the exile, and from the fact that he has been sold by his brothers. Someone may really think that he does not suffer anymore but it is not true. The names of his children express the state of his heart and also his attitude when he sees his brothers. He had never forgotten. Let us read: Genesis 42: 9 Then he remembered his dreams about them and said to them, "You are spies! You have come to see where our land is unprotected."

 And:

18 On the third day, Joseph said to them, "Do this and you will live, for I fear God: 19 If you are honest men, let one of your brothers stay here in prison, while the rest of you go and take grain back for your starving households. 20 But you must bring your youngest brother to me, so that your words may be verified and that you may not die." This they proceeded to do.

And in the last reference, it appears that he keeps himself to revenge against his brothers because he fears God.

Joseph kept himself to come into a great anger against God because he knew that his brothers were the one responsible of the fact that he was sold and not God. But the fact that despite the trials he remained faithful to God gave the possibility to God to raise him and to change the evil deeds of his brothers into a good one; not just for him, but for his family for Egypt and for the glory of God.

Eugenie L.

Wow I am 28!

When I think about this day, I was 16 when my heart ceased to beat because life was a great load, my spirit was out of my body, and I saw my body lying in the bed while I was going. I understood then that I was dead; I was leaving those that I loved. When I think how, Sweet Lord, I begged You to put life in my body again, and you did!

When I think again at these states of coma that I had in which I was fighting against death, and how You supported me and gave me life again!

When I think at this period where every rising day was days of praise because I still had the privilege to be among the living!

When I think at these moments where death was calling me and whispered me words, suggesting me to jump from windows of buildings, where the water of seas was calling me to jump into with the intention to drown me, or where a knife was an instrument of fantasy over multiple means that I could use to kill myself!

When I think at this multiple products that I took to give an end to my life!

Yes Lord, when I think that there were many things in my life which worked together to prevent me to have these 28 years! I say: There is really no one like You!

It is now 2 years that I did not experience what means a state of coma, but I am enjoying a perfect health in You,

2 Years that I did not try to kill myself, but I am having a great pleasure to live in your arms of love.

2 Years that I did not listen these voices calling me to kill myself, but where I listen the soft voice of the Holy Spirit telling me I love you Eugenie!

Lord, Thank You for this life that You preserved with a lot of attention! You have protected my life from the death that I wanted to give to myself and that illness wanted to give me.

Normally, at this period, I should be a pile of carcass in a coffin, but I am a young, beautiful lady of 28 who doesn’t just smile at life, but enjoy working with and for You, so that the enemy will tremble everyday that I live because everyday is a day lost for him and won for You.

Daddy! May all the day of my life be a pleasing aroma for You!

May I be an instrument into Your hands!

This is the greatest desire of my heart!

Thank You my Sweet Daddy!

Thank You !

Eugenie of Jesus

S’ il y’ a bien une chose qui est un bonheur pour moi, c’ est de connaitre Dieu. Car en Le connaissant, Il m’ a accordé la grâce de te connaitre et de t’ aimer.

Oui, Il m’ a fait découvrir le bonheur de t’ aimer.

 Chaque jour je suis bénie d' être ta soeur,

Je suis bénie par tes paroles d’ encouragements et ta présence.

 Tu m’ es précieux et je t' aime!

S’ il m’ arrive pendant les moments difficiles de vouloir baisser les bras, alors le Seigneur me rappelle tes paroles d’ encouragements ; il me rappelle les bénédictions que tu as dites sur ma vie. Il me rappelle mon amour pour toi et ton amour pour moi et tout ceci me relève et me remet sur pied.

Je suis une personne forte. Non pas forte de moi même mais forte de ce que le Seigneur me fortifie. Il me fortifie pendant les moments privilégiés que je passe avec Lui et Il me fortifie toutes les fois où par tes paroles d’ encouragement tu me transmets un peu de la force qu’ Il te donne.

Tu partages avec moi tes moments de tristesse et aussi tes moments de bonheur et ceci parce que je suis ta soeur.

Toi et moi avons compris qu’ il y’ a un sang très puissant qui nous lie celui qui a été versé à la croix de golgotha.

Tu m’ es si précieux et chaque jour que je me lève, je pense à toi et je souris.

Le Diable est en colère de nous voir nous entendre comme nous nous entendons.

Il m’ arrive de penser à toi en sautant de joie. Oui je saute de joie d’ avoir le privilège de te connaitre, de t’ aimer et d’ être aimée par toi.

Joyeux anniversaire Carine Dombou Tchonta !

Joyeux anniversaire à toi mon amie !

J’ ai compris avec toi le sens de l’ unité du corps de Christ.

J’ ai compris avec toi qu’ il est possible d’ être un avec son frère ou sa soeur en Christ comme Jésus est un avec le Père selon qu’ Il priait lui même au Père dans Jean 17 : 11 ... garde en ton nom ceux que tu m'as donnés, afin qu'ils soient un comme nous.  Et 21afin que tous soient un, comme toi, Père, tu es en moi, et comme je suis en toi, afin qu'eux aussi soient un en nous, pour que le monde croie que tu m'as envoyé.

J’ ai compris avec toi qu’ on pourrait faire confiance à quelqu’ un sans avoir le moindre doute.

J’ ai compris avec toi qu’ il est possible d’ avoir quelqu’ un avec qui on peut penser à haute voix sans avoir peur d’ être trahie mais sachant qu’ on sera toujours aimé.

Tu connais mon coeur car je ne te l’ ai pas caché et tu acceptes de partager ce coeur avec tous les autres enfants de Dieu de même que j’ accepte de partager ton coeur avec tous les autres enfants de Dieu et ceci sans jalousie ni amertume mais avec joie et bonheur car nous savons que c’ est ca la volonté de Dieu.

Je t’ aime Carine !

Ta Eugenie

Mourir pour celui que j’aime

Je voudrais par le présent message t’annoncer le désir que j’ai de mourir pour celui que j’aime.

J’ai compris en fait que c’était la seule façon pour moi de lui témoigner mon amour selon que Jésus dit : Il n’ y a pas de plus grand amour que de mourir pour celui qu’on aime.

On trouvera mon idée stupide de mourir pour lui mais je sais que c’est le seul moyen de lui prouver mon amour et je sais aussi que mourir pour lui c’ est:

-         Refuser de marcher selon mes émotions mais marcher selon Son Esprit

-         Comprendre que je ne suis pas intelligente de moi même et que j’ ai besoin d’ un renouvellement total de mon intelligence car je sais que si Daniel n’ avait pas un renouvellement total de l’ intelligence, il douterait de la révélation que Dieu lui a fait sur le rêve qu’ il racontait au roi mais on constate qu’ il raconte le rêve du roi et aussi présente son interprétation avec assurance (Daniel 2 :45) Si Esaie n’ avait pas un renouvellement total de l’ intelligence, il n’ aurait pas eu la révélation que la terre est ronde au point de le croire avant que les hommes le découvrent après bien des années. Et toutes les révélations divines qui sont dans la bible n’auraient jamais été faites car je crois que c’est parce que l’apôtre Paul a eu un renouvellement total de son intelligence qu’il est ce qu’ il est jusqu’à aujourd’hui dans la vie de plusieurs chrétiens.

-         Ne plus voir la souffrance de la chair comme un supplice mais comme une bénédiction car ça veut dire que j’en finis chaque jour un peu plus avec le péché (1 Pierre 4:1)

-         c’ est avoir la vie et la vie en abondance au point où je suis une source pour plusieurs car l’ Esprit de Dieu vit en moi selon Jean 12 :24

-         Aimer et aimer encore plus.

Oui je veux mourir pour Jésus, je veux mourir pour toi et je te remercie de ce que tu sais déjà que de moi même ce n’ est pas possible et que par ton Esprit tu me fortifies afin que j’ y arrive et fasse plaisir au Père.

Je te remercie parce que tu m’accompagnes dans ce processus car tu sais mieux que quiconque ce que veut dire mourir pour celui qu’on aime car tu es mort pour moi que tu aimes. Alors tu sauras me donner de mourir pour toi que j’aime.

Je t’ aime Papa ! [img]smile/chirolp_wink.gif[/img]

Ta princesse Eugenie, la fille de ton coeur !